This is my therapy blog. I'm going to post journal entries, if you will, about how I'm doing.
Lately when I smile it’s not forced anymore. YAY HAPPPINESSS, OH LOVE~~
I would love to go to school today because I have Drama which is !HIGH PRIORITY! because my teacher’s a tyrant who refuses to let people off for anything, but I think I have tonsillitis WHICH I CAN’T SPELL RN BUT WHATEVER and whenever I open my mouth it hurts.
I actually keep yawning and it’s stretching my throat and hurting like fuck.
I was meant to go to the doctor’s on Friday afternoon, but they’re closed on Fridays and weekends. WHAT IF I WAS ON THE VERGE OF A MENTAL BREAKDOWN AND NEEDED URGENT ASSISTANCE, DOCTOR? WHAT IF?
I slept through Friday afternoon until midnight on Saturday (which is today) and felt like absolute crap. It’s weird because whenever I get into one of my massive sad phases, it’s not like anything triggered it. I just get into a bad mood and then start thinking about things too much and I wind myself up. I kept crying and being kind of apathetic until Mum noticed.
Most of the time when I’m sad Mum takes the “You’re a teenager, ~this too shall pass~” road or she says it’s normal to feel crappy while you’re a teenager. Basically, she undermines my emotions even though she has good intentions. My mother is a lovely human being, I’m very lucky.
ANYWAY.
This time she told me to breathe and relax, and did the whole “INHALE.. HAPPY THOUGHTS.. EXHALE.. BAD THOUGHTS.” whiiich actually helped.
So I believe I’m on the ROAD TO RECOVERY. I’m just watching Disney movies a lot and avoiding social interaction with people who might upset me.
HAVE A SCREENCAP.
